Friday, February 11, 2005

ministry headache

what is my job? the way i see it: i want to invite young people to know christ. i want them to yearn for him. to love him more than anything else. but i can't make them. there is nothing i can do personally to make that happen and it pisses me off.

i get tired of playing jello games and toilet tag. i feel very unsettled. i want God to blow them away. they giggle and poke eachother when we pray.

am i doing enough?

am i doing too much?

do i talk about God enough?

do we read the Bible enough?

do we pray enough?

should i try harder with music worship?

should i start a second group for those who want to be more intense?

do i spend enough personal time with God?

am i normal?