Friday, February 11, 2005

ministry headache

what is my job? the way i see it: i want to invite young people to know christ. i want them to yearn for him. to love him more than anything else. but i can't make them. there is nothing i can do personally to make that happen and it pisses me off.

i get tired of playing jello games and toilet tag. i feel very unsettled. i want God to blow them away. they giggle and poke eachother when we pray.

am i doing enough?

am i doing too much?

do i talk about God enough?

do we read the Bible enough?

do we pray enough?

should i try harder with music worship?

should i start a second group for those who want to be more intense?

do i spend enough personal time with God?

am i normal?

1 comment:

Jennifer said...

Em -
I can't explain how much I understand what you mean - and yet I feel like I have no idea what I'm about to step into in Florida at my new church. Know that I'm praying for you. I very much look forward to getting to do ministry with you again. It's encouraging to know that there are others out there that feel like I do.
Love you Em - peace