Monday, July 11, 2005

Over a month

It's been over a month since I last posted.

Sometimes I am just not sure how to express my internal dialogue.

There has been a battle raging in my belly.

I am having issues with scripture and the church and tradition and how do I know that I am right and that the only way to God is through Jesus. This is scary for me. It is just so complicated.

I was in a class several weeks where we were discussing religion and in trying to explain my beliefs, my professor thought I was agnostic. I said no, but I couldn't make myself say in front of the whole class that Jesus is the only way to heaven and that if you don't believe in Him you are going to hell. The arrogance of that comment overwhelmed me as I looked at the faces of these people, my peers, who believe just as strongly in something else. They would have scoffed and labeled my a holy-roller and that would have been the end.

What could I have said? What should I have said?

I hear other's intrepretations of scripture and my perversion alarm rings and I puff out my chest and claim that 'No, that is not correct. I know what that verse really means'. I don't want to feel like this. Arrogance is not evidence of God's love.

I want to find confidence without pomposity.

What is my problem? Why can't I just get it and go on with life?

4 comments:

Jennifer said...

Em - I totally get what you mean. How do we get around the arrogance of it all? I know that it can all come back to living the way that Jesus did and letting that be the "Gospel" - but is that enough anymore? I'm not sure. I don't know what I think anymore. I guess I'm not really helping the whole thing because I'm just agreeing that I, too, don't have a clue. Hmmm - it's tough.

Cynthia said...

Hello Emily,
I think a lot of Christians struggle with this issue- the uniqueness of Christ- is he the only way or are there other ways to God. I handle this by letting Jesus be Jesus and sticking to him by faith, though I don't perfectly understand. He described himself as the only way to the Father, as the unique Son of God/ Messiah for the world. He said that belief in him was compulsory for eternal life.

So we know what the Bible says about it- pretty clear. Is it really my job to defend God? I can admit to others that I worry about other faiths and can see good things in all people. Yet here is what the one who changed my life has to say about himself.

Leslie Newbiggin wrote some about this and so did CS Lewis.

For me it comes down to courage to stay faithful to Christ in the midst of pluralism. This isn't a new problem. The culture of the New Testament was also pluralistic, especially the Hellenistic culture. How did Paul handle it... is one of my questions.

Anyway there's my two cents.

Cynthia (from RTW)

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princess granola said...

thanks cynthia.

i'm with you on all points. i believe in jesus.

my problem comes with the ways 'we' (christians in general) express our faith to others.

i have a good friend who tells me that she's glad i'm not a 'religious fanatic.' and i can't tell if that is a good thing or a bad thing.